|im a little bit of everything, all rolled into one
||[Jan. 30th, 2006|10:46 am]
|||||*im a bitch*||]|
the other day, i realized that i really have never fit in like so many others do. i think it might be because im so much of different things and aspects. especially if you look at like...stereotypes or labels. i sort of out-do myself from whatever i try to "take up". i party...but...sometimes i sit home and read, i could be smart if i really did try...but...sometimes i want to let that go, im artsy....but....i never fit in completely with others who are artsy...i love music...but...am just learning now how to read it
if people from pa saw me at home they wouldnt recognize me and vice versa
when im home in jersey its like im not home at all, im always out driving around with friends or at work or just having fun...
in pa im the complete opposite, im the loner in every single one of my classes, i seriously dont talk to anyone on a regular basis, i never hang out with friends.
if people from jersey saw me how i am right now, i dont think they would know it was me...for that reason it makes it so hard to come back to school after a break or even a weekend. if people from pa saw me at home they wouldnt know what to make of it...they might think that i dont like them cause im so quiet all the time here.
i feel like..im always the girl to invite but never be invited...
its too late to make friends here, everybodys already clicked up and buddy buddy...i was like this once before during middle school, when i only had four friends and they were all in different classes and lunches...it was the worst 2 years of my life...but i guess its not so bad this time cause ive got everybody online to talk to from jersey...so...ill just..stay myself underneath